Am I Despair, Deplorable, Embittered or Disheartened? Or am I lacking of something in my life?

One thing I'm very sure of is, I spend less time communicating with my Father-in-heaven recently. This situation has been turning from bad to worse = DANGER ZONE. Another thing I can conclude is, I have Bad Time Management. It isn't about whether you attend workshop on time management anot or having skills planning your time. These are peanuts! However, the challenge is, Do I have the STRONGEST DETERMINATION? I used to have strong will and determination. But now, it just seems to have lost somewhere within me and I need to hunt it back! God, what am i going to do??? Many things are overwhelming me! This is breathtaking! I'm really out of my wits, God. I felt that I'm no longer committing whole-heartedly in serving cell, doing quiet time and serving you! How am I going to gain all this back again? And Holding tight onto your Words again, I know that is the only solution, But God...something, Something is just pulling me back. I want to go back into your heart of worship Lord...But there's many distracting obstacles tempting me to fall... Lord, take my hand, guide me and protect me. Teach me to manage, Teach me to influence, Teach me to walk the Lord's pathway... ...